Sometimes I face difficulties with meal times because I should stop eating when I feel I have had enough.
In this life, I often struggle with the feeling that I will never be enough.
Once upon a time, I ended a marriage when God whispered to me, “It’s time to leave, Child. That’s enough.”
Sometimes I allow others to make me feel that I am not enough.
Do I show I love them enough?
Do I do enough at work?
Am I enough for the man I love?
Am I saving enough money to be able to retire some day?
Is this the breaking point; have I had enough?
Do I need to buy this, or do I already have enough?
With all of my questions about “enough,” there is one thing I do know. I could never be enough to pay back the debt I owe to God. I can never work hard enough, tithe enough money, volunteer enough hours, or go on enough mission trips to be enough to pay that back. I am so aware of this forgiven, canceled-out debt when I bow my head in prayer and thank Him for the grace He bestows on me each moment as I try to live this life, struggling so desperately with the word enough.
But that is one major point. My Jesus was ENOUGH. His blood saves me, cleanses me, and makes me His child. His love is changing my humanity and imperfections slowly so I can be what He wants me to be. Therefore, I am ENOUGH!
One of my favorite verses is 2 Corinthians 12:9:
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Before Jesus ever performed a miracle, God showed His love and approval of Jesus at his baptism. We find this account in Luke 3:21-22:
When all the people were being baptized, Jesus was baptized too. And as he was praying, heaven was opened and the Holy Spirit descended on him in bodily form like adobe. And a voice came from heaven: “You are my Son, whom I love; with you, I am well pleased.”
Here is an interesting point: God approved of Jesus BEFORE He completed any part of His early ministry. If Jesus pleased God before he ever performed a miracle, why should I feel so much pressure to be ENOUGH for God or for anyone else? He knows me and my past and my future…..and He LOVES me anyway!
I pray right now for all of us who feel we are not enough in this life. See our imperfections, our weaknesses. See the woman who feels she must look perfect. See the wayward child. See the man battling depression. See the one facing big decisions. Speak, Lord. Let us surrender our strengths and weaknesses to you, Heavenly Father, and rely on You and your strength and your grace. Open our hearts and minds to your will so we will see ourselves as the loved souls you have created.
I ask these things in the precious name of Jesus.